I'm embarrassed, all the time. And I don't know why.

I just didn't want to rely on people in order for me to go the library or to a friend's house,
I wanted to make my summer and school life lovely on my own. I didn't want to bother my dad, mom, sister, or friends.

I guess I can do that after the summer ends. That's not that far away at all. I'll be fine. It's not that big of a deal, I just, get scared about it. I don't want to bother anyone anymore even though I do anyway.  


How I acted was awful and not fair. I understand that, and I'm sorry.

Mom doesn't like me very much sometimes, I understand that too.

I get angry too fast.

I'm impatient.

I'm too "touchy" with people I like.

I'm awkward.

I'm hard to deal with and distant.

I understand that she's trying, that she's wonderful and kind and that I shouldn't be to hard on her.

I understand, most of the time, I do try really hard to understand.

I was a brat. (I hate that word; I've heard it too many times.)


just... I'm angry. a lot too. I'm sorry about that also.