My mom bought my 8th pair of converse today 35.50$
and a white lace dress, 11.98$.
The dress makes me want to run through a field of daisies and jump into lake fulled with the colors of a summer sunset.
And the shoes, I like them, a lot.
They make me want to walk though down town Tacoma, and watch traffic go by from the bridge by the museum of glass
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ha-ha they're "unisex," it said so on the label. I liked them because they were queer and reminded me of the shoes that this really pretty girl with short hair wore at the Red-Room.
I also needed them because I can't wear my black vans anymore
(you can see my toes when I don't wear socks.)
((They were a gift from Vanessa Reed so they made me feel cool))
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My mom spoke to me in the car about how I hadn't worn the last shoes I got, or the one before that, or the ones before that... it made me feel awful.
Coming home to Courtney's look of annoyance when she found out that she had bought them and how she held them up while saying nothing as she scrutinized them didn't help either.
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I love all of my shoes, I really do! The blue moccasins, the red converses, the yellow ones too, the ones with the zippers, my boots, I have a lot of memories with all of those shoes! Whether you believe it or not.
Thank you so much for getting me them, mom.
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....I just felt my best in my old hole invested boots.
I felt cool wearing those boots.
But I realized today that they're really nothing special.
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...I'm ungrateful really, all of those shoes and shirts that I never wore were gifts from someone who loves me
and I didn't love them as she hoped I would.
I made her disappointed.
But I won't do that anymore!
I'll wear all of my new shoes!
I promise this time!
I make sure this time! I'm so sorry that I didn't wear them, I really am.
I'll force myself to wear them, I won't wear boots for a month, the first of December is tomorrow,
I'll start then!
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