Pig socks: day 2

mom blew up in the car. we were sent away because the principle man forgot to scribble his name on our papers, someone needed to watch the baby, Courtney went to Micah's for pancakes,  Kaitlyn had a dentist appointment, I was upset that I was even home-schooled in the first place and was telling her about the mistake she made.


"it's not the education we have a problem with, it's bad stuff that goes with it"
we were talking about co-op and how i hated that the people there seemed scared of the world. they clung to ignorance believing that it'd benefit their kids some how.


" 'here mom I'll help you' that's all i want to hear, but noooo! 'I need to go eat pancakes at Micah's' "
what was the point of that? To make her feel awful, to get her to admit she was wrong?

sometimes I forget that my mom is a deer and that she means the best. She tried, I should have acknowledged that.


"GO EAT YOUR STUPID PANCAKES!" 

my bear of a dad isn't here to be involved but he's the one that calls the shots. This was his doing, he just has mom be the go-for and take the crap and frustration for him. it's all him.


"all I get when he comes home is CRAP!"

I told her that she was going for a bigger reason than pancakes and that Courtney was probably just being a good friend. Like I like to be sometimes.



"We're not mad at you, mom"

"OH COME ON!"

I felt sad for her, I cried with her, but not very much.

"I know I made a mistake keeping your guys home, i'm not afraid to admit that, I just spiritually thought that I was making the right choice..."